We recently received this letter asking for help. The person who wrote it is now in service and being supported towards his goals.
5th October 2015
Dear Ms Williams,
Help! I am 32 years old. I have had a problem since I was 19 years old. I have to confess that not a day goes by when I don’t regret the fateful day when this problem started. I am sat here now contemplating the many bad things that have happened to me and my family over the years. In most cases, my actions and self-destructive behaviour have had dire consequences on my own health, my family, my friends and most importantly my ability to support myself going forward. My whole life revolves around “one day at a time”. I can say with my hand on my heart “I don’t want to be like this anymore”.
I am now at the stage in my life that I need the HELP and support of others to help me rid myself of this problem once and for all. I have made a commitment to myself to do whatever it takes to get my life on track and rid myself of these urges and dependencies. I want to start living and have a normal life before it’s too late.
I am writing to you and several organisations and individuals who I hope can help me. I hope I can rely on your support, so that I can start my journey and get myself back into a good mental and physical state. I know this won’t happen overnight but I need to start now. I have over the last two months analysed my life and can now clearly identify how and when my weaknesses occur. I need your support to help get me into rehabilitation. This is the key for me and I need to do it as soon as I can for as long as it takes. I have realised that when I am sent to the Hull clinics for my prescriptions that I see every face I know from the past and the temptation comes knocking. I don’t want this. I want to get better and I know that means staying away from these people. It’s taken me years to acknowledge this and now I am fighting it. I don’t want to be like them. I don’t want the temptation. I want the help to get me past this and move on. I think the after treatment environment of the past has contributed greatly to the problem and I see this second stage as a very important part of the process for me.
I’ve also realised that at 32 with no fixed address and sleeping on my mother’s sofa is killing me. Do I really want this? It’s a simple answer “NO”. I want to find somewhere I can live where I can get stronger and beat these urges in a calm and controlled environment.
In the last two months I have started trying to plan and create a small business and it’s helping me to at last see a light at the end of what for me is normally a long dark tunnel. At the moment, I have faith that I can actually do this. I know it won’t happen overnight, but I need your support to help me get a place in a rehabilitation centre. I see this as the first major step. I know these people can help me and for once in my life I feel I am ready to be helped. In truth I don’t want to die! I want to live for my daughter and my family and show them I can be the person they all hoped I would be. I know my time is now and it’s not too late but if I don’t get some kind of help it could be.
Sally, I want to get better and I need your support to help me on the first step of the ladder. That’s all I’m asking from you and others like you is to help me get on that first rung of that ladder to a better life. I know I need to do the rest and now I am ready. I then need to focus on the right environment when I leave the rehabilitation whether it be in two months or six months and create an atmosphere that is conducive to continual development and rehabilitation.
I hope I can count on your support and that in six months’ time from now I will be in a place that is both physically and mentally better than I am now.