
This week has had its ups and downs. Some days abstaining seemed as easy as breathing. Others I had means, opportunity and a readily arguable excuse to give up trying that day – they were the difficult days but I stayed on track.
Every day I have to want to do it for myself and believe that I can.
I had one day where I had been working hard in my garden laying out a new design to include the planting my wife wanted. When she got back from work the first thing she said was derogatory, quickly followed by stating that the new design wasn’t any good. I was insulted, furious and feeling self-destructive – but I didn’t get wasted. I took time out, calmed down, then got on with life. That was good!