I could not leave the house for 2 weeks

I got into Heroin through an ex-boyfriend I was under a lot of pressure at the time and I wanted  the anxiety to go away so my boyfriend asked me if I wanted to try heroin to calm me down.  Little did I know I would get hooked.

After I ended the relationship with my boyfriend, I remember walking with my head covered up  with a hoodie, sweating and shaking. I pressed the buzzer at the Direct Access and started  crying. I was put on a Methadone Programme and then onto Subutex at the Junction. I have  been free from Heroin and Subutex for 3 and a half years now.

Then a year ago I was at work when a man who raped me when I was 16 came in, this was the first time I had seen him since it happened and I am 34 soon. When I got home I fell to bits. I could not leave the house for 2 weeks, the kids were not going to school and I hit the bottle bad even persuaded my neighbours to buy it for me.

I just wanted the memories to go away and to have a good nights’ sleep without waking up without crying and feeling scared.

I hit rock bottom and drinking was all I had to help me get by and help me sleep.

I have not had a drink for 3 months and I feel amazing. At the end of the Programme I am on the kids will be coming back to live with me. I can then be the Mum they deserve and I want to be. I got lost over the years but now is the time to stop all that, I’ve got help and support and my children are everything to me. I have counselling to help me deal with the past and I am going through a divorce.

I have support at the Alcohol service and my confidence is growing stronger each day, it will be a new life all round, Recovery!

For the future I hope to be a Volunteer at the service to give something back and use my experience to help others.

Read the full story of this amazing woman and her recovery here

Published 10th July 2013

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