I got into Heroin through an ex-boyfriend I was under a lot of pressure at the time and I wanted the anxiety to go away so my boyfriend asked me if I wanted to try heroin to calm me down. Little did I know I would get hooked.
After I ended the relationship with my boyfriend, I remember walking with my head covered up with a hoodie, sweating and shaking. I pressed the buzzer at the Direct Access and started crying. I was put on a Methadone Programme and then onto Subutex at the Junction. I have been free from Heroin and Subutex for 3 and a half years now.
Then a year ago I was at work when a man who raped me when I was 16 came in, this was the first time I had seen him since it happened and I am 34 soon. When I got home I fell to bits. I could not leave the house for 2 weeks, the kids were not going to school and I hit the bottle bad even persuaded my neighbours to buy it for me.
I just wanted the memories to go away and to have a good nights’ sleep without waking up without crying and feeling scared.
I hit rock bottom and drinking was all I had to help me get by and help me sleep.
I have not had a drink for 3 months and I feel amazing. At the end of the Programme I am on the kids will be coming back to live with me. I can then be the Mum they deserve and I want to be. I got lost over the years but now is the time to stop all that, I’ve got help and support and my children are everything to me. I have counselling to help me deal with the past and I am going through a divorce.
I have support at the Alcohol service and my confidence is growing stronger each day, it will be a new life all round, Recovery!
For the future I hope to be a Volunteer at the service to give something back and use my experience to help others.
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